Away from Home

I wish I could be there to spend time with you Ca, to make you laugh and forget about that day if only for a short time. I feel bad that I live so far away and that I had to come back home so quickly after everything happened.

You mean so much to me and my family and I think about you every day, I just wish I could be there.

It has started to get a littler harder to be so far away from home. It isn't that I don't love it out here or that I don't like Jackson but sometimes I feel so out of touch with everything. I can't just drive home for a long weekend or even hop on a plane to visit someone who lives close because tickets to anywhere are at least $350. I miss being around for the little things like church events, movie nights with friends, and always having my family around.

I've been grouchy with my roommates lately, they've been driving me nuts again lately. Sometimes I feel like I am just so much different then everyone and that I am just the tag along. No one wants to just hang out with me, they hang out with one of my roommates and then I'm invited. Not that I am not wanted but more like people are friends with J or A and I'm a bonus, neither a good or bad bonus but just kind of there.

I still haven't found my nitch, something just for me that maybe other people do or like because I do or like it. Like I am a Celtics fan now because J likes them which is cool cause I never really had an NBA team and now we often go somewhere to watch there games and our guy friends come along even though they don't really like the Celtics. If I mention The Colts around them its like oh who cares and the other day when the Giants were playing the Cowboys of course I was rooting for Eli's team but who cares about the Mannings.

I also want someone to be interested in me. Not that any of the guys out here are really relationship material but there hasn't even really been a person who has shown interest in me as more than a friend.

I suppose my time will come and in reality I have a good life and shouldn't complain! Plus my dad is coming to visit in a week which I am super excited about although I am kind of stressed about figuring out what we are going to do while he is here. Since we are in our off season there isn't as much going on activity wise and there is snow but not enough to do winter sports yet plus the mountain isn't open yet. Oh well, I know it will end up being a good time!

Peace Love and Amazing Dads!